I AM: melody?
I THINK: i do?
I KNOW: nothing.
I WANT: nothing in particular.
I HAVE: anger issues. HEHE.
I WISH: upon a star!
I HATE: vitamins
I FEAR: being alone in the dark.
I HEAR: music. aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiicia keys. you don't know my name.TEEHEE.
I SEARCH: for him. i hope it's him.
I WONDER: what life is about.
I REGRET: many MANY MANYYYYYYy things.
I LOVE: you.

I ALWAYS: s m i l e! unless im unhappy?
I DANCE: the chicken dance. and the potty dance. KEKEHEEE xD 
I SING: in the shower. :P you wouldn't want to hear me. trust me.
I CRY: silently.
I DO NOT ALWAYS: seem like i care, but i do.
I FIGHT: hairy monsters. 
I WRITE: on paper?
I WIN: hmm.. do the pop up ads that say " you're our 7192837591283759827532135 contestant!! and you've won $983791823759102837592183751!! CLICkK HERE TO GET YOUR PRIZE!" count? cuz i've  won about a gajillion of those.
I LOSE: hairties all the time.
I CONFUSE: me, myself, and i.
I LISTEN: when i want to. or when you need to spill out things.
I CAN BE USUALLY FOUND: sleeping
I NEED: a longer attention span. HEHEHE.

I AM HAPPY:  today.

I love this font. DURRrr.*

anyway, i got this suuuuuuuuper cool camera phoneeeee {{oOH BABY!}}that i dont really know how to use. BUT i'll learn. haha. if you wanna know the digits, ask! MMM.. went to reno for a bit, had lots of fun! went snowboarding, fell on my butt way too many times. it HURTS. guess thats it..just gotta tackle my hw sometime soon.  hah.

well I hope that everyone has had a wonderful christmas and got what they wanted. and if you donft celebrate christmas. happy kwanzaa! happy hanukah! happy holidays in general!

happy new years!

hope your resolutions work out!! as for me..

resolutions. i hate them. -__-

went shopping yesterday and today. hah.

edit : got my winterball dress!! pAh. exciting.

life is good.

edit//

over the past few months. i have devoted my time into a new hobby. guard. when the season ended. i knew i had to do winterguard. it seemed to be my passion. that was meant for me. tonight right after guard practice was over. daniella told me something  i wish i never heard. "something something .. your schedule just wont fit the performance schedule." (i made a compromise during colorguard season that i would be there earlier and skip on special show days. but not all.) i was crushed. i don't think i've ever experienced that feeling before until now. if the decision were up to me, i'd skip all my classes just to go do winterguard. but it's not. it's left to my asian mom. brilliant. anyway. returning my flag felt like giving away part of me. i said my last goodbyes holding tears back with a smile on. but right after i turned around. i burst into tears. i couldn't hold it in any longer.  i don't think i've cried like that in a long time. it might seem like a stupid thing to cry about. but i developed love for guard. i guess i have to find a new hobby. one that i can love and stick to forever.

edit: i think i just might stick with track. passion for running ;) good stuff.

<3 i MEL0DY_

i love it when you meet someone that you don't know and become really great friends with them. they seem to u n d e r s t a n d  y o u and listen to you when you need to talk your problems out. how they seem to always be there for you 24/7. all you needed to do was to call. how they call when they promised you they'd call. even if you were hundreds or thousands of miles away. when they stay up till 3 just to keep you company while you were working on a project. but what happens when that friendship drifts? nothing left but two strangers.  im not exactly sure what happened..but i wish i could rewind time and make it all better. i miss the good days. i miss how it was.  i miss you.</3

<3 . MEL0DY . ASHANTI. MILATE . 637

edit// i know that it seems like i`m not there for you. i may seem like i have better things to do, but truly.. nothing`s better than talking to you. if you EVER need anything. i`ll be here. you may not even know that this is for you. but i hope you do. cuz it`s my turn to make things better. but you've got to tell me where we went wrong.